"Act as if everything depended on you, but trust as if everything depended on God." - St. Ignatius

Lost!

Where do I begin? What do I do? Where should I start? Which step comes first? What should I do next? Whom should I ask? So many questions in my mind.....I honestly do know where to start.

What do I want to do? What am I trying to achieve? I am not even sure of these questions. My life is just in a limbo right now. It has stopped. It is stuck. I need a push, a shove....but from where? Now..that is a question.

I am waiting for answers. I look at the universe and I am trying to figure out what lies ahead of this haziness. The never ending clouds that obstruct my views. The non-stop chatter of my mind. The uneven heartbeats. The anxiousness that creeps up within me. Peace, calmness and serenity seems so far and out of my grasp. What do I do in the meantime...what do I do?

Forgiveness

If I cannot forgive myself for all the blunders
That I have made over the years,
Then how can I proceed?
How can I ever dream perfection-dreams?
Move, I must, forward.
Fly, I must, upward.
Dive, I must, inward,
To be once more
What I truly am
And shall forever remain.

----Sri Chinmoy----

Faith

Always remember, no matter what happens, or how bad you feel about it, or how much you don't like it, God knows exactly where you are and what you need. ALL you have to do is trust that God will help you understand the value of your experiences....no matter what they look like.

- Iyanla Vanzant (Faith in the Valley)

Gone Forever!

Maan! She called out running behind him.

He was already in the elevator by then and the elevator doors shut abruptly on her face even before she could get into the elevator. She desperately pressed the elevator button again and again impatiently waiting for the elevator to come up. With each second she was getting anxious, agitated and frantic. Fear of losing him took over her and she ran to the stairs.

Maan! Please rukh jao. Mujhe chod ke mat jaao Maan. Please rukh jaao.
Maan! Please do not leave me. Please do not go.
I love you very much and I cannot live without you.
Maaaaaaaaaaannnnnn....she screamed.

She woke up sweating and her breath was coming out in gasps.  For a second she was not able to comprehend anything.....she looked at her surroundings and realized that she was in her room and had woken up from the same nightmare that she was seeing every day for the past 7 years.

Maan was gone....gone forever. ..and she was all alone. Lost, lonely and alone. Tears started pouring out of her eyes, sighing deeply and fell back on the bed. It was the same routine she went through every night over and over again.

(Fan Fiction: Geet Hui Sabse Parayi)

Smile

A Smile is a curve that can set things straight.

Trust

Trust - The glue that holds all relationships together.